Verses, Tales, Thoughts
by Varsha Panikar
Paranoia strikes in the hearts of everyone. We put it all on the line simply because we can. The past is bittersweet and the future seems so terribly grim. The light that’s inside us, has gone so desperately dim. So what do we do? We waste and kill ourselves, with our eyes fixed on the moon, and all we can think about is our impending doom so let’s go down together, down that rabbit hole, into the world of insanity, and stop worrying about your decaying vanity.
It’s the things that we never say that truly get in the way. Those unspoken truths could serve as tiny proofs that someone’s existence had meaning and that the light they radiate is still glowing somewhere in our hearts. However, our lips stay locked in a tight seal, so they'll never know how we truly feel. And so, days go by, and nights are never-ending. We continue to rely on our broken pieces to help our hearts from mending, looking at pictures tainted with all the actions and memories—memories that tend to lie.
Yet, we keep trying to find truth in all that is unsaid. Fragmented reflections display confusion inside the head, searching deep for clarity in all that’s dead and unheard. Desperate to draw conclusions that set the soul free from relentless dread because words unsaid reveal a lot, and they can lie. We create what we need to in order to get by. But what happens when life takes a turn for the worse and quickly goes? Suddenly, everything can change to what you feared and never imagined you’d have to know.
We beat ourselves up, begging for that one little moment to say, “I love you”, "I miss you", "I'm sorry", one last time, to make sure they know it. Yet, when that moment stares us right in our faces, we stay silent once again, and nothing ever changes the way we feel. So how do you ever fix a heart that has been broken from the crushing weight of words that were never spoken? Because words can cut deep and leave scars for life, unlike the chance of recovery from the damage of a knife. They can lift a heavy heart or brighten a dark day. They can heal and inspire with the meaning they convey.
There’s power in words and in silence. Both tend to torture when they leave their mark inside us. And still, it’s easy to forget that words we never hear or say are sometimes truly the ones that get in the way.